Until i go inside..

Until i go inside..

The funny thing is i

The funny thing is i don't even care. She could be anyone. But she's not. She's not anyone. A friend. But what else? I won't know

I didn't know that it was so cold there

Picture of the day. It looks so nice on the other side of those bars but I just can't break through them. It's been an interesting few days. I felt amazing today for some reason. I want to attribute it to all the exercise I did yesterday, thereby reinforcing my will to do it. I have the will actually, just not the time (at least the hours that the gym decides to be open on weekends.) Anyway it was an ups and downs weekend. A weekend of learning things and finding out things I didn't want to know. About myself and others. This doesn't mean as much as you think it does.

"I'm sinking slowly so hurry hold me
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on
Please can you tell me so I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone

If you want to, I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside, so busy out there
And all you wanted was somebody who cares..."
~Michelle Branch

I'm not listening

It was a warm day, unfortunately spent mostly inside. Work then class. It's nice outside still and it's after midnight. I love the warm nights. They are really my favorite thing, being able to be outside when it's night time with a t-shirt on. I was feeling weird this afternoon. I couldn't wait to have a few drinks and chill out. Lots of mellow music as I walked around campus thinking. Music really brings back memories and conjures up new feelings that I don't understand some of the time. I had a nice reprieve for a while tonight with some friends but now I feel strange again and listening to The Used is making some strange thoughts come up. I'll just go to bed. That's my quick fix.

"Lights out! I can't stand to hear you scream
While we were making love I was fast asleep
If your heart's still beating it must be the blood
If your lungs are still working it must be the mud
If its still light out than a kick in the ribs
And today's worth living, it probably is..."
~The Used

Pull myself together, let it out

Pictures of the days. The ski weekend went well. It was fun to be away, even though it seemed to go by really quickly. We skiied, played games and just had a good time. Time is so strangely elastic like that. When I'm working, time goes by so slowly but when you're having a good time, it passes by so fast. I'd like to take a week or more and be able to go away with some of my friends. It would be great to be able to just hang out and not have to worry about waiting for someone to get done work or get back from school. I'm looking forward to the summer, hopefully more trips and shows for the band. Yes, the warm weather is best.

"Photographs of our best moments
make me such a mess
I need to pull myself together and
let it out..."
~New Found Glory

I'm always coming down from the night before....

Picture of the day. It's hard to find the beauty in a place where you spend most of your days going to class. I do enjoy a lot of my time at Rowan, however. It is so much better than Cumberland County College, there are no words to describe it. The people, professors and students, the classes in general and just the atmosphere of academia. It's nice. I can have a regular conversation with my professors because they are closer to my age. I even have a good relationship with professors that I had the past two semesters. I just talked to one of them today and it just made me happy that we can talk like friends.

You can just stop talkin', I get it

Picture of the day. Not so great but this is pretty much what the day was about. It was an official snow day! Rowan closed its campus in Glassboro for the whole day, making three weeks in a row that I didn't go to my wednesday night ethics class! She cancelled the first week and last week it was snowy and we didn't feel like going up since our other class was cancelled and this week it's a snow day! We're never going to go to that class. Snow days have a connotation of fun that I suppose was instilled in elementary school. No school means we're going out to build snowmen, have snowball fights, go sledding and then drink hot chocolate. Well, we did a few of those things at least. Now we replace hot chocolate with beer though. The feeling of the snow day is just as good though because you get to sleep in and then wake up and have fun. I mean, it would probably be more prudent to use the time off to catch up on work that we are behind on but hey.. I want a damn snow day. And I got one.

"You can just stop talkin', I get it
I hear your silence loud and clear
I know it's barely a thought but it'll see us through
I'm only settin' you free so just let it happen
Let it happen, no need to fear
Yeah, you can just stop talkin', I get it.."
~Plus 44